positive spin

Been avoiding blogging because once again, I'm a downer.

The positive side is that I'm healthy and so is the enormous baby Quinn but other than that it's kind of sucking. It looks like I'm headed back on bed rest to try to cope with the pain that so far no one can explain. Theory #1 was that it would pass within a week or so. 2 weeks later, the newest theory is that maybe the size of the baby is going to make it worse. All I know is that on good days I feel like I've been hit by a bus and on bad days I can hardly move without crying.

I'm tired and emotional. I'm not depressed per say but the inability to do ANYTHING is causing a certain amount of depression.

I'm trying to be grateful, I really am. I know that I'm blessed and I will be happy when all of this is over and she is here and healthy but for now I'm struggling.

I'm also having a really hard time accepting the help that I need. I think I reached my breaking point today though. If sucking it up, swallowing my pride and letting my friends be good friends means that I don't have to go to bed crying at night then I guess that's what I do.

Told ya, a downer.

Side note, baby is estimated 4 lb already. Yep, you read that right. 4 lb at 30 weeks. This could be my biggest baby yet.

What a week!

Mallory is married. Hanna came to visit and is already gone. I spent half the night in the hospital to have them tell me I overdid it and to lie down.

My girls are wonderful. My husband is wonderful.

I'm ready for this week off so I can lie in bed the ENTIRE time. So don't bug me. I'm not available for ANYTHING until next week.

But I love you all.