I'm really not posting this with the intent of getting validation from anyone so please do not feel that's what I'm looking for here. Mostly this would be just a vent and an airing of my own frustration.
Being a student is hard. Being a mother is hard. Being a wife is hard. Being a helpful daughter is hard. Combine all of those and it's damn near impossible. Every time I try to up my effort in one of these categories, another one starts to fall apart and it's this very fine line between balance and complete and destructive chaos.
So then I end up feeling sub par when it comes to all of them. I'm not a good enough student, mom, wife or daughter and it's KILLING ME.
And I know it's all about perspective and I should cut myself a break but I can't seem to stop focusing on my inadequacies when my kids are screaming at me, my house smells like dirty laundry and moldy dishes, I haven't had a conversation with Jim in weeks and I forgot to finish my homework AGAIN.
15 more months. I can do this for 15 more months right?
