Sunday, April 24, 2011

Mother's Love

Seeing the Easter Pageant after recently having a baby again put the whole thing in a completely different perspective.  As I watched the part where Mary sings about what her son will do someday but that tonight he was just her baby, I was sobbing (yes, pathetic). 

It made me sit back and think for a moment how I would have felt to be her.  Knowing that someday my child would have to go through the pain, suffering and sorrow that he would someday have to endure.  I kept looking at Quinn and was completely floored by not only the sacrifice of our Savior but of his mother.  What Heavenly Father had actually asked of her. 

This Easter I'm so incredibly grateful for the sacrifice of Jesus Christ but also of Mary.  She was stronger and more faithful than I can possibly imagine and made a sacrifice I can't even comprehend.

Monday, April 18, 2011

Quinny the Pooh

I took Quinny in for a weight check today and I seriously thought she was well over 13 pounds!  Totally wrong.

At 4 months:
your child is 12.375 pounds, and that is
at the 14th percentile for weight.
your child is 24 inches, and that is
at the 26th percentile for height.

When your baby suddenly wants to be held all day long, I guess it's a good thing she's small.  She seems like she chubbed way more than that.  Oh well.

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Saving Grace

“For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone.”-Audrey Hepburn

Mallory saw this in a magazine today and I loved it.

Monday, March 28, 2011

Friendship

Today I was thinking that just because someone doesn't NEED friends in their life, that doesn't mean there isn't someone out there who might need a friend.

Maybe a friend like me.

Life Lessons

“Lies and gossip which harm reputations are scattered about by the four winds like the seeds of a ripe dandelion held aloft by a child. Neither the seeds nor the gossip can ever be gathered in. The degree and extent of the harm done by the gossip is inestimable”

Spencer W. Kimball

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

On a somewhat brighter note...

My friend had this on her facebook status today

"Often the deep valleys of our present will be understood only by looking back on them from the mountains of our future experience. Often we can’t see the Lord’s hand in our lives until long after trials have passed. Often the most difficult times of our lives are essential building blocks that form the foundation of our character and pave the way to future opportunity, understanding, and happiness." Dieter Uchtdorf

Reminded me of being in seminary and learning to liken scriptures and doctrine to our current lives and current situations.

I may not understand what is to be gained from my present struggles but everything happens for a reason and the Lord will never give me more than I can handle.




Now, did I mention how much I love having a baby around again?  I can hardly believe I won't ever do this again because it's just bliss!  It helps that I'm incredibly blessed when it comes to babies, calm, happy, non-colic-y babies.  I'm in big trouble down the road when I have three teenage girls but for now, motherhood doesn't get any better than this!

Monday, March 21, 2011

Conversion

Ever since Jim joined the church he has always referred to one specific quote.  And I always loved it too.  I remember it hung on the wall of our neighbor's house when we lived in Idaho so whenever I would go over their I would see and stare at it.


I would certainly like to say I can always keep this in mind but I'll admit that it's hard right now.  I want to hold my head high and proclaim from the mountaintops that I'm strong enough to handle anything that comes my way, but that's now how I feel right now.

Right now I feel like crying...in a corner...in the fetal postion....with a carton of cookies and cream ice cream.

This year it looks like will be one of the hardest of my life...yep, one of the hardest.  Putting it out there.  I'm fighting every day to just live in the moment and enjoy the smell of a baby's head, the strange vocabulary of Caelan and the perma-smile of Ainsley but I'm struggling with that.

I'm aware of how blessed I am but I'm also reminded daily of what has been ripped away me, peace of mind and a the ability to believe in the goodness of human beings.

On that note, I may be going private again so if you weren't added last time be sure to let me know if you want an invite.  Even if you're just a lurker and want an invite, just let me know.